THAT IS WHAT I HAVE BEEN READING ON BLOGS LATELY AND IT PISSES ME OFF!!
There are a few select blogs I follow that are planning to permanently 'fall off the wagon' . . . No, I take that back. They are saying that they are planning to JUMP OFF THE WAGON and not attempt to get back on. They're saying the obstacles life has thrown at them have defeated them. Stress has beaten them into believing they aren't worthy of being healthy.
AND THIS JUST PISSES ME OFF! PISSES ME OFF SO BAD, IT BRINGS ME TO TEARS!
But I've been there. I've been the one who has given up so many times. I've been the one who said, 'I just can't do this anymore,' and no matter how much inspiration, motivation and good intended advice I was given, it didn't change my mind.
I lost 2 lbs this week. Not fantastic but a loss is a loss. I could have/should have worked out harder. I could have been a bit more careful with my calories. But I'm not going to turn around and make my journey thus far in vain just because the scale didn't drop dramatically.
So for those of you wanting to quit, that's your decision. But know this: Whether you eat crap or eat healthy and whether you live a sedentary lifestyle or an active one, the days-weeks-months and years are going to pass. The question is, in those days-weeks-months and years will you feel better about yourself because you decided you are WORTH IT or will you REGRET your decision because you didn't want to TRY anymore? That is the question. Where will you be and how will you feel in your future?
Me? In my future, starting now in the present and beginning 6 weeks ago I choose to be thin. I choose to be active and I choose to be healthy.
Today I have made a renewed vow of daily exercise. I have discovered using the Wii board without actually turning on the Wii console. I can let Buzzy watch her shows and I can still do my step classes, my stretching, my strength training and aside from that I am determined to hit 100 jumping jacks. If Jillian says I can do them, then HELL IF I WON'T.
I did 45 minutes of 'self instructed Wii step class' today. I then did 40 jumping jacks (2 reps of 20) and boy was I dying by the 35th one. I wanted to stop so badly. There is nothing quite like all the junk in one's truck (and gut) defying gravity as one propels themselves off the floor in quick jumpy movements. It's quite uncomfortable as of current, but it will get better. Then I did 3 reps of 10 pushups on the wall. (I still cannot do a real pushup, even the girlie kind) But I will gradually lower myself until I am doing it. Because I will do it! All in all I did about 60 minutes of exercise today. Inside, while it was raining and my girls were entertained. Yay me!
Okay, so now be honest. When you first read the title of today's post, and then started reading the body of it, did you think I was giving up, or did that not even cross your mind? I'm interested in your first impression.
I'm going to go to a bit of Wii now and then I'm going to watch a movie with my sister. Pray the girls stay asleep and allow me a bit of time to myself. Thanks!
The Fat Chick