Breakfast - coffee with cream + bagel thin + 2 TBSN whipped cream cheese = 370 cals
Lunch - Lean Cuisine and 100 cal snack pack = 400 cals
Dinner - Lean Cuisine = 300 cals
This is where I told myself I was done.
I disappointed myself.
I went to the stupid jewelry party.
And I ate.
I ate as though food were going extinct.
And added an additional 1033 cals to my day.
WTF was I thinking?
And I did it consciously. There was no mindless eating. I told myself before I picked up anything, 'don't eat anything. You have a weigh in tomorrow.' Did that stop me? Nope. Not even for a moment.
I'm ashamed. How could I sabotage myself soo willingly.
I feel like a whale.
I feel sick.
I want to throw up.
Tomorrow will post certainly show a gain. My 12th week and my first gain. I am truly appalled at myself. Truly appalled.
But that doesn't mean I won't surge forward. In the month of April AND THE 6 DAYS PRIOR I will eat well. I will attempt some form of exercise as often as possible and I will come back May 1st (a Saturday) with a number close to if not below 275.
I'm going to go now and very possibly cry.
The Fat Chick (who apparently needs a good kick in the ass)