I REALLY REALLY NEED TO GET BACK TO THE CORE OF THIS THING. I NEED TO GET BACK INTO THE GROOVE.
Starting tomorrow, I am back to counting calories for every little morsel that touches my lips and I am going to try like the dickens not to go over 1500 cals. If I make it there my lunch, well than whoops, no dinner for me. That's just how it will have to be. There are no more birthdays or holidays coming until June 9th which is Buzzy's birthday but because I get to plan that, I can decide what yummies will and will not be there. So between now and May 1st I still plan to lose 11 lbs and be at 275 at weigh in that Saturday. Assuming I meet that goal, on June 9th (Buzzy's 2nd birthday) I want to have lost another 10lbs and be at 265. Is this too ambitious? I don't think so, but I really need to step up my game if I plan on doing it.
In addition to my makeshift bike, as I said I would do, I have incorporated squats, (3 sets of 10) kneeling leg lifts (5 sets of 10 on each leg) and island pushups. I wish it felt as exotic and tropical as it sounds. Alas it is not. (2 sets of 10) I have a very weak upper body.
On a completely other topic I am so excited, which motivates me even more to succeed at this weight loss thing!! A couple days ago I went shopping. I found one black shirt I liked but there was only one of its kind so I just took it into the dressing room with me. I tried it on and it looked GOOD! I bought it. Took it home and when I ripped off the tag to wash it I saw the size. Can you guess what size it is? 1x. Not 3x or 2x. 1 friggin x!! I am also excited because I am starting to see things on my body I haven't seen in a long time. My collar bones, (those have been obvious for a little while) my wrist bones, my inner ankle bones, my shin bones (they are smooth now instead of lump with fat). There is definition between my hips and my waist, and my bat-flaps (you know the saggy arm fat) retracts when I flex my upper arm muscles. Yay!!!!!!!! The other day my gramma also asked me if I needed any new exercise clothes. I said yep cuz my old ones are just HUGE on me. So she brought me back yoga pants size 2x which are a little big but they'll do the job and 2 size 3x stretchy shirts. These shirts I imagine are made in Japan where people are very small cuz these shirts are the same size as my mom's XL and 1x shirts. WTF? In any case I'm super happy because only 3 months ago I was wearing size 4x in men's shirts and my belly was peeking out below the hem of even those. Now I can happily wear size 1x-3x depending on the maker and my belly stays inside my shirt. LOL
The Fat Chick
P.S. Chris at A Deliberate Life wrote a post on March 20th that she left in a comment for me to read. I did so, thinking nothing of it but as I read I related, and I cried, and got chills and am still in awe of how it struck home with me. If you are struggling with your weight loss, if food is overpowering you, if you don't feel you have the will-power or if you are just plain scared go read THIS POST!! Please . . .