Well, in case you’re wondering why I will leave you in suspense no longer. And HERE starts my organized chaos. Know that things are not as neat and tidy as I sum them up to be. Things are more difficult than I could ever describe and confusing too but to keep YOU SANE I will make it easy to read and easy to understand.
I haven’t been inspired to read or write. I’m sorry. This doesn’t mean I have lost interest in the people traveling the same journey as me. I just needed a small break.
I am feeling low and dejected when it comes to my novel. Questions plague me constantly. Is it good enough? How could I make it better? Should I change this or that or eliminate this or add that? Will the agent like it? What if he rejects it? What if he accepts it? OMG!
He's in Mexico. He has been for a few days. I hope he doesn't come back. So far he hasn't called or contacted us in any way. This makes me happy. But the stress of not knowing if/when he's coming back and in what 'mood' is killing me. I wish he didn't STILL control my life so much. But that's what happens when you have children with the devil...er an abusive man.
Not much happenin’ here. I want to start the c25k program but don’t think I’m up to it yet. ((yes that’s another EXCUSE. I’M LAME) (insert sad face)
Been doing okay. Not great. Not horrible. Staying under 1800 cals but that’s still 300 cals above my daily goal of 1500. ((sigh.. again))
I said I was going to weigh on Thursday. Yesterday. I did. 283. -1lb. Nice. But I am not going to use that as an official weigh because I’m going to start weighing on Monday’s and so my next official weigh will be then.
AND THAT IS JUST A MINISCULE PREVIEW AS TO WHY I HAVE BEEN MIA. BUT I’M BACK. SORTA. SOMEONE WHIP MY ASS INTO SHAPE PLEASE AND DRAG MY MIND ALONG FOR THE RIDE… PLEEEASSEE!!
Oh yea, tonight all photos for those participating in the STRETCHING CHALLENGE OF THE UGLY CUPCAKE SOCIETY are due by 8pm PST! Good Luck!
The Fat Chick