Since yesterday I have been thinking that I need to start eating well now after all the celebratory yummy numminess.
But then I argue with myself that tomorrow is my grandma's 64th birthday and we will be going somewhere super yummy to eat.
Then I argue with myself that I could probably still find something healthy no matter where we go
To which I answer myself, but why chance it? Why not just enjoy myself for 6 more days?
Well, because then you will have that much extra sodium and weight to lose once you do start again.
As if the tens of thousands of calories I have consumed in the past week is going to be affected by another 1000 calorie meal.
Eventually the hunger monster always wins out.
I will start again on January first.
Cliche but that is just what I will do.
Then birthdays will be over, New Years Eve will be over and there will be no more celebratoriness to sabotage my efforts.
In an effort to spark some inspiration, though I have decided to take a little trip down memory
|Playing with Shadows, not Myself. I Promise|
|High School Probably Around 230-240lbs|
ALL OF THESE WERE BETWEEN 260-280LBS
JUST AFTER AFTER I WAS MARRIED.
|300+lbs here and approximately 2 months pregnant |
|Approximately 350lbs and 8 months pregnant |
|360+lbs here and ready to burst with Breezy. |
Just before Due date in August
IN 2010 I BEGAN A WEIGHT LOSS JOURNEY
THAT WOULD TAKE ME DOWN
TO 270LBS FROM A WHOPPING 330
|280ish lbs |
(my profile with my cousin facing the camera)
I DIVORCED IN 2011 AND MY WEIGHT STARTED TO CREEP BACK ON
THESE NEXT PICTURES ARE IN CHRONOLOGICAL ORDER
|The beginning of the weight gain|
Probably around 295lbs
With My Seester
|My Most Recent Photo|
I have heard many people say, 'what I wouldn't give to look like that' or 'like I did' or whatever. Obviously you wouldn't give up food or downtime on the couch watching your reality TV huh?
Well, right now that battle is raging for me. What I wouldn't give to lose this weight?
The question is, WHAT AM I WILLING TO GIVE TO LOSE THIS WEIGHT? In one way or another we sacrifice something.
WILL I CHOOSE HEALTH AND BEAUTY, VANITY AND LONGEVITY or WILL I CHOOSE GLUTTONOUS, SLOVENLY, HUMILIATING DELICIOUS FOOD??
That is the question and only I have the answer.