We all remember that age old question from childhood, right?
What do YOU want to be when YOU grow up?
I honestly don't remember what I said.
Maybe I am blocking out the memories or maybe I didn't really have any idea about what I wanted to be but I know I was asked it often.
I have asked my children this same question and their answers are nothing if not unique and completely fitting of their personalities.
Sassy adamantly and with great enthusiasm declares in quick succession that she wants to be a doctor, a scientist, a dancer, a super star and a singer.
My big girl has big aspirations
And if course it is my motherly duty but also a very firm and actual belief of mine when I insist that SHE CAN DO ANY OF THOSE THINGS or none of them or ALL OF THEM TOGETHER.
WHATEVER MAKES HER HAPPIEST!
If you ask Breezy, you'll get a bit of a different answer
She wants to be a runner . . .
And that is where the normalcy of her answer ends
She then proceeds to mumble a little but in deep thought and a bit of a stutter and a lot of interjecting ummmm's and looking up to the ceiling as though it might provide her with the words she is looking for that she also wants to be:
Kitty Soft Paws (too much Puss In Boots?) , Mama Rainbow Dash (too much My Little Pony?), or a mermaid
Yep, those are her precious three year old aspirations when she grows up
But I WILL NOT RUIN HER DREAMS
If she wants to be a clawless cat or a Pegasus with the gay pride flag for a tail or a damn fish with tits who breathes underwater, then come hell or high water,
THAT IS WHAT SHE CAN BE IF THAT IS WHAT MAKES HER HAPPY
|And by those in our life who we need to support us most|
And sometimes don't
*Insert big 'ol smile. If my babies are truly and genuinely happy with their lives when they become adults doing LITERALLY whatever it is that fulfills them, that will make me the happiest mama alive.
Now, as I said I don't remember my aspirations
I thought I wanted to be an author once I reached middle school
And considering I have succeeded in writing, publishing and selling a complete book,
I would say I have completed that goal
Now I have a new one
When I grow up, I want to be
A ZUMBA INSTRUCTOR
THAT is HOW MUCH I LOVE ZUMBA!
So, I am not giving myself a time frame to lose the weight.
I never did before. I don't plan to now.
My weight is not a prerequisite to taking the training course,
For them or for me
I do have two personal prerequisites though:
- I need to either lower my car payment or pay off my car
- And I need to have finished the training course before I am 29.5 years old which is April 13, 2014
That gives me one year to learn the hell out of every dance so I do not go in as a BEGINNER
I am NOT A BEGINNER
I can salsa, merengue, cumbia, reggaeton, belly dance, flamenco, and African Rhythms my ass off
I have developed serious endurance (for dance) with Zumba
(Don't go all cross fit or kickboxing or yoga or pilates or spinning or Jillian Michaels DVDs or whatever on me here, because you'd all beat my ass with that shit - I think)
But I KNOW MY ZUMBA
And in that year it will help me to get just a little bit more of that ass off before I go shake it in front of a bunch of ZES (Zumba Educational Specialists)
But that is my goal.
By APRIL 2014
I PLAN TO BE
A CERTIFIED ZUMBA INSTRUCTOR
THAT IS WHAT I WANT TO BE WHEN I GROW UP
*AND WHEN I SHRINK SIDEWAYS*