Monday, August 26, 2013

Week 3 Progress (sort of)


The short of it. I gained 0.4lbs this week because of some poor choices in the sodium department last night. Yes, I am blaming the gain on bloat because I ate 100% within my points.





End Wk 1 End wk 2 End wk 3
Dress Size 28 28 28
Bust 42.5 42 41.5
Arms 19 18.5 18.5
Waist 50.5 49.5 48
Hips 67 66.75 66.5
Thighs 33.5 33 33

I lost 2.25 inches this week and a total of 4 inches total in 4 weeks. 

And that is all I have for today. No Weight Watcher's meeting next Monday because it will be Labor Day so I will have to find a meeting to weigh in at on Sunday or Tuesday or around there. 



Monday, August 19, 2013

Week 2 Progress

What a week!

Most of which was full of stress and anxiety but yesterday my grandparents took the girls and I out to dinner and dessert and to the river.





I got my Active Link from Weight Watchers to track my activity. It is a lot like a Body Bugg! Right now I am in the preliminary week where it gets a feel for your normal activity and therefore can gauge where you need to improve. Yay!




It hooks on nice and snugly to my bra and is very comfortable. 
In fact I forget it is there.

So, onto the nitty gritty.


I LOST 4 LBS THIS WEEK 
MAKING A TOTAL LOSS OF 9.4LBS 
IN TWO WEEKS ON WEIGHT WATCHERS!
WOOT!

Column1 End Wk 1 End wk 2
Dress Size 28 28
Bust 42.5 42
Arms 19 18.5
Waist 50.5 49.5
Hips 67 66.75
Thighs 33.5 33

I LOST A TOTAL OF 2.75 INCHES BETWEEN LAST WEEK AND THIS WEEK

AND OF COURSE THE PHOTOS

PLEASE EXCUSE MY LEFT EYE. WHILE IT IS NATURALLY SMALLER THAN MY RIGHT, IT HAS BEEN BOTHERING ME WITH POPPED BLOOD VESSELS FOR THE LAST WEEK (FROM STRESS?) AND THUS IS EVEN SMALLER THAN NORMAL. I LOOK LIKE ONE EYED PETE. ((SIGH))


IN THESE BACKSIDE PICTURES I ALWAYS GET THE FEELING THAT I LOOK LIKE A SMALLER PERSON (TORSO) SET ON A MUCH LARGER PERSONS BOTTOM HALF WITH BIG PERSON ARMS. I FIND MYSELF VERY DISPROPORTIONATE AND AM HOPEFUL THAT AS I LOSE WEIGHT I WILL BECOME SOMEWHAT MORE-SO.

Aand, I just realized I was typing in all caps. 
Oh well, I am so not going back and writing that whole thing again. 

Now the question is . . . what to have for lunch?

Until later

Sunday, August 18, 2013

How Many Times Must I Say This?

I am having a hard day.

I just feel low.

For no real particular reason.

And then to make my low-ness even lower

I get an e-mail from the ex.

"I really want you to let me see the girls tomorrow."

Well, we've already discussed that he can't see them unless he follows the parenting plan which is at a supervised visitation center and he flat refuses.

So, here I am stuck in a dilemma.

My oldest (after the whole calling the police shenanigans he pulled) is extremely fearful of seeing him.

My little one is neutral and even leaning on the side of wanting to see him because she knows he will buy her toys.

Part of me thinks, what is the harm of letting him see them for a couple hours?

While my logical mind ticks of the reasons why the above thought shouldn't even cross my mind:


  • He called the police on me for no good reason
  • He is not stable or consistent 
  • He is a loose cannon and I no longer know his limits
  • He isn't following the parenting plan
  • When I give him an inch he takes ten miles
And the list goes on and on infinitum. 

So, I really want to e-mail him back and say, "how many times must I say this?" or "how many times do we have to have this very same conversation?" but I just don't have the energy in me. I don't want to respond at all. HE KNOWS WHAT HE SHOULD DO and he just isn't going to do it.

I DO NOT want him just showing up at my house like he did a few weeks ago though. That would be as scary and devastating as if it were the first time he had done it. I don't like him showing up unannounced. He really truly scares me that much. 

Which is another bullet as to why I should not even contemplate letting him see the children outside of the parenting plan. 

I'm just so exhausted. 

So tired of him wanting to be a part time dad - when it's convenient for him or when it proves something or wreaks some kind of vengeance on me. Those are the times when he wants to see them. Like last week, he didn't even bother to contact them. In fact there has been no contact with them for 13 days now. Tomorrow would have been 2 weeks and very well may continue on into 3 weeks if he doesn't somehow get his act together. 

I just don't know. I'm so so very tired.

What is your opinion? Let me know.  

Stay tuned for my 2nd week weigh in tomorrow. At least there is one good thing to look forward to.



Monday, August 12, 2013

Week 1 Progress

As is my habit, I updated my ticker on the day I updated my blog which was a day I weighed in naked at home in the morning before I ate anything. Consequently, I am doing weight watchers where you have to weigh in at meetings, clothed (gasp) and unfortunately since I go with my mom after she gets off work it is in the evening after pretty much a full day worth of food and exercise. Thus why my ticker gained 2lbs. Oh well.

That being said, I LOST 5 LBS THIS WEEK! Yes!
(5.4lbs to be exact)

I will be posting weekly shots of my official weigh in stamps from weight watchers so there is no kerfuffle about the validity of my weight loss - and so I can remember which days belong where and how much I lost when.
















Column1 End Wk 1
Dress Size 28
Bust 42.5
Arms 19
Waist 50.5
Hips 67
Thighs 33.5





























This week in recap.

I walked most mornings to and from the neighborhood park where my grandma and I allowed my girls to play for a while and then proceeded to do an entire loop of the neighborhood. I ate within my PointsPlus and did NOT use all of my extra weekly points or ANY of my activity points. I could have made better food choices but like I said, I did stay within the limits of my points. 

I accomplished 15 hours worth of the 30 volunteer hours required at Sassy's school for this coming year. 15 more hours and I am done which won't take much honestly. Though I am quite tired of and from the collating of Kindergarten curriculum. Tomorrow I turn that in to the Kindergarten teacher which is a huge load of my shoulders. 

Ex husband has not been in communication with me. Not to ask me to see his daughters, not to tell me to tell them he loves them, not for anything which both relieves me and makes me suspicious. But for now I will relish in my freedom - that is until I receive the summons I have been dreading would arrive for going on 2 years now. I honestly don't think he has the energy or the know-how to figure it all out though and anyway he hasn't accomplished what the original Parenting Plan set out for him to do in the first place, so other than psychological stress I really have nothing to fear.

Aaand, apparently my body is trying desperately to rid itself of all toxins because I am breaking out on my face, especially around my mouth and nose, like nobodies business. I am not pleased. For someone who has had maybe 3 zits in her life, this sudden rupture of pain and redness and soreness on my face is really not welcome or appreciated.

On that note, I will bid you adieu. You know - children to put to bed and me time to be had. Goodnight!


Sunday, August 11, 2013

Tuning Back In

Let me re-introduce myself
My name is Kristen aka Misc Mom
-to my beautiful 4 and 5 year old daughters
Breezy & Sassy
This is a new beginning post
ENJOY
Hello again!!!

I've been off the radar as far as my blog goes. I have still been connected with people on Facebook and e-mail but that is about it. I am back though, and ready to continue blogging as a regular part of my weekly routine. Yay!

I've had a pretty rough go of everything lately and then even as I write that, I know - genuinely know and understand - that my life is pretty damn simple and pretty damn easy in comparison to others', so I really ought stop whining.

Last Monday my mom and I joined Weight Watchers and thus far - a week in - everything has been working quite well. I do not feel deprived. I love eating massive quantities of fruits and vegetables and still seeing the number on the scale decline every day. Now, I just have to remain focused on what is MOST important and that is the eating portion of this whole journey. Exercise or no exercise, blogging or no blogging, full or empty life, I must keep at eating well or I will just end up right back at the beginning.

I have been off aspartame and other chemically infused products for several weeks now with a slip up of a piece of sugar-free gum once and a 4oz cup of ice cold Crystal Light because the only other choice was warm tap water and I was roasting from the inside out so I chose thee tea. Other than that I have been completely avoiding all those products. Instead of Diet sodas I am drinking regular if I have to have a soda, but in general I am drinking water and juice and coffee. In my coffee instead of several packets of Splenda I first used regular refined white sugar but decided to change that up to Sugar in the Raw. It just tasted better and dissolves much better. Now I just have to slowly taper off on the amount I am using which right now is approximately 6 tsp or 2 TBSP. I know that I should be using much less than this so that is a work in progress but I am counting the points for those 2 TBSP which adds up to 3 points.

I have been walking every morning with my grandma and taking the girls to the park. The only problem with that is the heat and the humidity. I barely have to move to break out in a sweat while I'm outside, so to assist in pulling the girl's wagon - because they get their fair share of exercise at the park and walk too slowly for me to get a good workout - is no easy task.

I haven't written my book in forever. I have all these ideas tumbling around in my head but they refuse to be exported from my brain to the computer. Every time I sit down I just go blank even though the scenes in my mind are so detailed and exciting I sometimes feel like I'll burst if I don't get them out. Such is the life of a writer. The story will let me know when it is ready to be told.

My ex- husband is still on his roller coaster - not that I ever expected him to get off. He definitely has some problems that I, not having a degree, cannot identify or perhaps they are as simple as feeling entitlement and ownership to something that does not actually belong to him because he is the baby of 13 and is accustomed to getting everything he wants if for nothing else than to shut him up. Apparently, in the 11 years we were together he never quite learned that I didn't work that way with him. So, now one minute he is the devil's spawn and the next minute sweet as pie. Apparently he is currently urgently trying to construct his house in Mexico, but for what purpose I am unsure. Whether he plans to move there eventually, or move some family in there or if he has more sinister plans that I cannot even bear to imagine, I just don't know. Thankfully and unfortunately - simultaneously - he changed his passwords for his phone and Facebook accounts, so while my OCD has been cut off by means of checking constantly for non-kosher activities and phone calls that may harm or affect my daughters, now I can no longer see when and if he does those things. So, I am both unnerved and thankful. Mostly thankful though, because my time is much better spent focusing on my children and my health.

Tomorrow is my first weigh in with Weight Watchers and if my scale at home is any indication of what I will see than I am one happy camper. I will be weighing every Monday and each night after weigh in I will write a post about that weigh in, meeting details if they are interesting or particularly motivational for me as well as measurements and progress photos. Those pages will then be published in the Weekly Progress tab at the top of my Home page. I am going to try to do this every Monday but as I stated before, my priority and my focus are my kids and my eating so there may be a Monday weigh in that doesn't appear until Tuesday or Wednesday. And I am okay with that.

Catching up in Weight Loss and Parenting blogland has been weird. Many blogs I follow have disappeared or gone private. I don't have the energy or drive to figure out how to request an invite to some of these blogs so I guess I will just have to find new ones. If you know of some awesome blogs (Weight Loss, Parenting, or Fitness - no fashion or promotional blogs) give me the heads up because I'm on the lookout for new (inspirational, funny and awesome) reading material.

And on that note, it is time for the housely chores; dishes, laundry, cleaning. ((sigh)) The life of a single mama.  But these faces are worth it. Ciao





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