Saturday, January 4, 2014

I Am What I Am

I am so saddened
By the amount of negativity in our world
That anything from the simplest statement
to the most profound actions
made with good intentions
Can be so poorly interpreted
Both unknowingly and for the purpose of creating drama

I had the opportunity to re-post something on my Facebook page
It moved me to tears
The story itself
&
The testimony
Not long after a post about the same thing surfaced on my wall
Only in this post the girl who re-posted
was belittling 
berating
criticising
everything that I had thought was beautiful
Saying it was false
A pretense
I commented that regardless, the meaning behind the supposed
falsity
pretense
was a pretty good lesson
moral
way of life
To which she responded in not so many words
that I was delusional and naive

I am what I am
I suppose
I believe what I believe
But I have learned something in this short 29 years here on planet earth:

Whether you are only a few days old
Or 101 years old
Man or woman or hermaphrodite
White or black or brown or yellow or red or purple
Blue, green, brown, gray or violet eyed
Heavy or thin
Tall or short
No matter what language you do or do not speak
Whether you are married or single
Whether you consider yourself straight, gay, lesbian, transvestite, transgender
Whether you are educationally 'smart or dumb'
Street smart or completely green
A super star or a nobody
Successful or a perceived failure
Rich or poor
Sick or healthy
A mother, a father, a sister, a brother, a cousin
Whether you love cats or dogs or don't like them at all
Whether you prefer cold or hot
Pasta, rice or potatoes
Whether you are an omnivore, carnivore, vegetarian, pescetarian, or vegan
Whether you discipline your kids by spanking or not
Whether you discipline your kids at all
Whether you believe in the death penalty or not
Whether you believe in the use of marijuana for any purpose
Whether you love the United States or detest everything it stands for
Whether you like the color pink or black or blue or any other color of the rainbow
Whether you believe the chicken came before the egg or vice versa
Whether you are pro-choice or pro-life
Whether you are republican, democrat, independent, socialist, communist, or Marxist
Christian, Jew, Buddhist, Hindu, Muslim, Agnostic, Atheist or other

IT DOESN'T MATTER
Because people will judge you
People thrive on judging the beliefs, opinions and lives of other people


I am a 29 year old woman
Of white skin color and brown eyes
Short and heavy
I am bilingual and I am divorced
I am straight
And of average intelligence both academically and 'street wise'
To most I am a Jane, a Nobody, Someone most have never heard of
And many might call my life thus far a 'train wreck' or a failure
I am financially poor
But I am physically healthy
I am a mother, a daughter, a granddaughter a sister, a niece, a cousin
I prefer the cold
Cats
Potatoes over any other carbs
An omnivore
And I believe spankings on the bottom or on the hand have their purpose
I believe in discipline
And though it hurts my heart that it is ever necessary 
I also believe in the death penalty
I do not believe Marijuana should be legalized in any capacity
I love my country
My favorite color is cotton candy pink
And I do believe the chicken came before the egg
Pro-life
Independent
Christian

And 

People 
Will 
Judge me

For every last detail and more of what I just said

But I am what I am
I will not change what I am
I am who I am
God made me this way
It is impossible to eradicate myself
And simultaneously believe what I believe


"Let you look sometimes for the goodness in me, and judge me not." 

-Arthur Miller

There is only one lawgiver and judge, he who is able to save and to destroy. But who are you to judge your neighbor? 
James 4:12

2 comments :

  1. Don't let it get to you! People are jerks! I have one or two people that comment on my blog and they always take my words and turn them into negative posts....always belittling my words and telling me that I'm wrong or stupid...and in one they even said I was childish. It bothers me (obviously since I just babbled about it in my response to you).....but I'm trying to just say to myself "other people are miserable with their lives and it comes out in the way they respond to everyone else." The other thing.....I'm trying to make sure that my comments and posts (on blogs, fb and everywhere) are uplifting. (although right now I feel as if I'm failing).

    Ok...so now that I rambled....do NOT let other people get you down. You know what you were saying. You know what you mean. YOU know you....no one else. So everyone else....ignore them!

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  2. I think you are awesome (and I happen to be much like you in our belief systems). I would much rather be an optimist and be positive than see the negative in everything. I don't care if people think I am ignorant or gullible because of that. I am much more pleasant to be around than they are! And so are you!

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